It's all i can see for miles,

-01:36

i've wondered what it's like to stop being me

-01:37

existing can feel so strange

but, it's a given that it's a side effect of the way i do it

Sometimes I can't believe that I'm where I am, who I am, and what I am

i haven't even fully figured out what i am

-01:40

It's odd to say, but to me, it's all so beautiful

yet so confusing

well, it's not all confusing. i just feel that way about certain facts

-01:41

it can be quite depressing too, but i always remind myself

I feel as though it doesn't matter whether i'm happy or sad

because emotions are only signals

our experience of existening is the way it is because we're organisms, it's all optimized for survival

All desires, all fears, all of it

I don't feel any way about this fact, but i struggle to understand what i really want

the things that i want the most are the things that feel the most out of reach

and it seems, from what i've seen. this is meant to be

Am I happy or sad about it?

-01:46

There is an unresolved feeling

-01:49

There is a conflict in what I want

some of these things cannot be true at the same time

-01:51

What i KNOW that I desire the most, would be attainable if this world were only a little different

-01:55

the way i am , it had a low chance of happening

it's why./

-02:00

Why I'm so alone

-02:01

It's an unfinished story, but there was someone just like me

i say this to mention how crushing it all is

-02:04

i know why i want to create my own world

it's an idea i've been somewhat obsessed with

one day, i realized the exact reason Why

-02:04

however, it's still unclear as to how this could be done

i don't feel an attachment to anything

-02:05

i wish it rained more

-02:32

Where's your attention headed?

-07:42

I can't wait to see what happens next!

-07:48

ask

-07:51

We're in the middle of this

-07:52

it's calming......

-07:54

a full realization

-07:55

Only I would know

-07:56

,Maybe it's really that fun?

It's great.

Don't ask me why I know this

-07:59

I love you. I love everyone!

-08:00

i thought you hated them?

-08:00

This... It comes from a genuine place of joy, from my heart.

-08:02

and, No. I never felt hate towards people themselves. Only towards their actions.

-08:03

I've always liked people. However, this feeling of joy.. It's a moment, which feels like my eyes have been replaced with rose-tinted sunglasses., It's not because of people. I don't know why

-08:05

Speaking of eyes, would you say that mine are fairly functional?

... They're ok.

-08:06

I've seen worse, so yes, yours are fine.

-08:07

what a beautiful dawn

-08:10

What are you smiling about? lol.

-08:13

i don't know and it's just hilarious to me

-08:15

You're dealing. With. Someone who knows what they're doing...!

-08:21

nah not really though

-08:21

is that the case?

-08:23

I'll get back to you when i figure that out!

Mark my words.

-08:24

Is that really what happened?

-11:00

Thank you.

I've had so many questions about what I am

-11:15

Some concepts of which I was already thinking about the other day...

-11:16

Your knowledge is valuable. I couldn't connect the dots because I didn't have the pieces necessary to understand where it all led.

I feel like I truly understand myself now!

-11:17

The question is, how do I feel about what I know?

I'm a bit worried about health implications, but other than that.. I'm just happy to know why I am! Thank you for completing my knowledge, and helping me answer my biggest question.

-11:19

Two worlds

-14:29

But I love those worlds

-14:51

i won't leave either one

it's where i live

-14:52

Here's the day

-15:59

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-16:13